I tried talking to my sister about college and how I'm hardly coping but she blew me off. She didn't get me at all, she became defensive, as if I was blaming her for something, and then she logged off. I'm dying to have someone understand, I'm dying to have someone help me,save me, hide me from the world. But no one does, no one ever see's how fucked up I really am. Why is it so hard to understand?